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How often during your daily activities do you find your thoughts concerned with all the things you must get done before the end of the day?

Or, are you still going over something that happened earlier in the day or the day before.

Have you noticed what happens inside your body when your mind is wandering into the future or the past?

As I began paying attention to my body throughout the day I noticed my heart rate increased.  My shoulders and other muscles became tense.  My energy level dropped.

It is no wonder at the end of the day we are all so tired.  We have been acting as if we were in a life threatening situation and our body is responding to the messages we are sending it.

I invite you to try a new practice.  After all, what I just described is something we have been in the habit of doing for who knows how long.  So, all we have to do is practice a new behavior long enough to create a new habit.

Throughout your day begin to pay attention to the signals your body sends to you.  If your shoulders are tight take a deep breath and focus all your attention on the task you are performing at this exact moment.  Notice how your body begins to relax and how much better your feel.

The more often you do this throughout your day the more energy you will have at the end of the day and the better you will feel.  It is amazing how a simple shift in focus can make such a big change in our life.

Let me know how it goes.  For me it is taking a lot of practice but I am noticing some improvements.  I think I am going to like this new habit.  I just need a little more practice.  Well, maybe a lot more practice….


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Have you ever considered what motivates you to take action in your life?

A friend of mine uses fear.  She takes action from a place of fear.  Fear of what will happen if she does not force herself to do something she thinks she should be doing.

Unwilling to force myself into action from a place of fear I examined my behavior which results in no action at all.  I talk a lot about what I will do but never seem to take the leap into total action.

I discovered I was talking about it and not doing it partly because I had not really made a commitment to love and support myself.  On some level I was still questioning whether it was right, would I do it right, what would happen if…you get the picture.

I was judging myself and my motives and they did not match up to who I really am.

Then I began to ask myself what it would be like if I made the choice to take action from a place of love.

What if I took the action I wanted to take because I knew without question it was the most loving thing I could do for myself.

What if by making that commitment and following through with a consistent shift in behavior I would be proving I loved myself enough to give myself what I truly wanted.

So, I decided  to take action in the direction of what I wanted without being afraid of what might happen.

I decided to stop judging myself.  I began to praise myself for each tiny step I was making in the direction of my dreams.

I decided to begin to show myself how much I value my relationship with myself.

I decided to provide myself with the love, respect and support I always looked for outside myself but discovered lived inside me all the time.

Now I am focusing on the love within instead of trying to find it somewhere outside myself.





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For some time now I have practiced ways to keep myself focused in the present moment.  Yesterday I noticed something different and want to share it with you.

I was taking a few deep breaths trying to relax the tightness in my shoulders.   As I felt the shoulders relax I noticed  another part of my body was also tight.

When I finally felt my entire body relax…a thought drifted in and captured my attention.   Immediately my shoulders resumed the same raised and tightened place they were in when I started.

After some time of working and observing it became clear the tightness was the result of fear.  I was afraid of what might happen in the future and that fear was keeping my body in a state of stress and dis-ease.

I turned my thoughts to the things I love and appreciate about myself.  I noticed and gave thanks for the things I am grateful are in my life this very moment.

As quickly as my body had become tense it became relaxed.  I was experiencing joy and peace in the place of fear and worry.

It is no wonder we have so many physical problems.  We rarely experience our natural state of simply being.

Living fully focused in the present moment is where we find our health, peace, joy and abundance.

I plan to check in with my body more often to see how I am doing at keeping my thoughts focused in the present moment.

Are your shoulders tight?

Are your hands clenched?

Are you tapping  your feet?

What is your body doing to get  your attention?

A simple change in focus can change your life right this very moment.

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Fear Does Not Exist

I don’t know about you, but I used to spend most of my waking hours controlled by fear.

When I was first diagnosed as legally blind I became painfully aware of how this constant state of fear had contributed to my loss of sight.

For years I struggled to drop fear from my life not really understanding what it was.  Then one day I  received this insight.

Fear does not exist unless you are thinking about something you do not want to happen.

When I understood my thoughts caused me to experience fear I became hopeful that I could one day be free from the debilitating grip of fear.

You see when you spend time thinking about things you do not want to happen you begin to imagine what it would be like if they did happen.

These thoughts cause all kinds of emotions and even physical responses to the emotions around the imagined event.

Emotions are your inner spirit telling you whether or not what you are thinking is true.  So, if you are imagining things you do not want to happen your inner spirit is telling you to stop thinking those thoughts.  They are not true.

So how do you break free from fear?

I wish I could tell you I found the secret and tomorrow you will be free.  It is not that easy.  What works for me may not work for you.

The first thing is to spend some time asking your inner spirit to guide you.  Then, be open to what comes to you.

In my case a book appeared from an unexpected place.  Then something else showed up, etc.

There are many methods.  The goal is to stop thinking about what you do not want to happen.  Instead spend time thinking about what you do want to happen.  And, spend as much time as possible being grateful for what you already have that you love.

You have the power within you to free yourself from fear.  I know you can do it.  Why not start today.

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How did you do it?

“I want to know what you did to get from where you were to where you are today.  How did you do it?” That is what a friend of mine asked when we were discussing this blog.

She went on to explain that people always make it sound so simple.  They accomplished something great but they don’t tell you what it took to get there.

It gave me a lot to think about.  Since every person walks their own path, how do I share with you the part in the middle between where I was and where I am today?  It was such a long journey for me.  And, because of my unique perspective on life it was a complicated journey.

In an effort to share with you part of that journey I remembered something I wrote to a friend of mine back in 2002.  I decided to share it here.  Perhaps this is the best place to begin.

My Vision

Recently there seemed to be a dramatic shift in my eyesight so I went to the eye doctor.  The visit provided very interesting details concerning the symptoms.

One cataract appears to be the kind found only in people over 100 years of age.  They take at least 40 years to form.  The color is orange but there seems to be no blood vessel damage to explain it.  The other is more opaque in nature but neither one is the kind one would expect to find related to my history of medication for asthma or the family history of illnesses.

The doctor said that my vision can no longer be improved with glasses and that I would not be able to pass a driver’s test.  My license expires this month.

My first reaction was to get all the vitamins I could find, read all I could and try to make something happen without surgery.

Two days after the diagnosis I was in our little second-hand shop when I picked up a book and opened it to a page that was entitled “eyes” and contained affirmations for healing eyesight.  A woman who practiced science of mind wrote it in the 1920’s.

The result of reading the book was the awareness of my words that created the illness.  Always saying and thinking “I can’t see.”  And the realization that fear has ruled my life.

What this woman said is that our subconscious is the pure power of the universe.  In order for it to bring that power into the physical world it needs direction.  That comes from our words and our thoughts.  The way to change our thought patterns or our mind is through the spoken word; thus the benefit of affirmations in changing our minds.

So I began to spend hours and hours writing and speaking affirmations.  The result is that fear no longer controls my life.  But there seemed to be no significant change in my eyesight.

So I decided to ask Ken for help.  I have difficulty allowing him to help me.  There is some part of me that gets in the way and we seem to be unable to get to the truth.  We worked for about two hours and seemed to be getting nowhere when Ken asked me, “If Jesus were sitting here now would you ask him to heal you?”

Suddenly I became aware of the fact that not only would I not be able to ask I could not even look at Jesus.  It was evident I had to shift my belief about myself as being worthy of receiving help.

I managed to reach the place that I could ask; yet nothing seemed to happen except that my vision shifted from seeing double to seeing triple.

I know I believe God can heal.  It has happened before, but why hasn’t it happened now?  I was angry, felt guilty like maybe I did not have enough faith…so much inner turmoil I could not sort it out.

Once again I asked for help from Ken.  This time it became very evident that the next step for me is to love myself.  I seem to be unable to see the good in myself.  I can see it in others but don’t know how to love me.

This is nothing new.  I have struggled for years with this and thought I had made great progress.  But, when faced with something so threatening as the loss of sight I obviously have serious questions as to my worthiness to receive love.

I have always said that the Bible can be summed up in two verses where Jesus speaks.  He says that we are to love God with all our heart mind and soul and we are to love our neighbor as we love ourselves.  On these two laws hinge all the laws of all the prophets.

So, the key for me is how to love myself.

I have started by taking time to thank God for what I like about myself and then telling myself I love that about me.  This is very difficult but I am making some progress.

I have decided today to start each day with the question. “What can I do for myself today that will prove to me I love myself?”

I’ll keep you posted on my progress.


WOW, it is December 7. 2004 and I have just reviewed what I wrote to a friend about my healing journey and especially about my eyes.  This was just after I discovered I was legally blind.  I first wrote those words on December 12, 2002. So much has happened since then.

I continued to search for a way to heal my eyes without surgery.  My birthday passed that December and with it the ability to continue to drive.   Fear still had a major grip on my life.

I began experiencing light flashes and by springtime I accepted the fact that God heals through many methods and cataract surgery was indeed a miracle. Since I had such a fear of it perhaps I should face the fear.

An appointment with the surgeon resulted in the need for surgery on the retina before the surgery on the cataract.   That was a real shock.  I had to undergo two surgeries instead of just one.

The retina surgery was on an outpatient basis but was rather painful.  One month later the cataract surgery was performed in a day surgery clinic.

It was difficult due to the denseness of the cataracts. It was five days before I could see out of that eye clearly, but what an amazing miracle.  I had perfect distance vision out of that eye.

I took a week off from work to let the eye heal some.  The first day back the unthinkable happened.  My vision began to change.  It was late in the day and I could not get an appointment with my doctor until the next morning.

I knew something terrible had happened.  I asked my husband to take me to the river.  I remember sitting on a rock and visualizing myself laying the bottom of a boat wrapped in a blanket letting the river carry me wherever I needed to go.  I surrendered to God’s will.

The next morning my doctor informed me my retina had detached and I was rushed to a retina specialist.  In less than 24 hours I was in surgery again. This surgery was in a hospital operating room for sic and a half hours.  The retina specialist re built my eye and placed an air bubble in it in an effort to restore my sight.

The air bubble required that I stay in bed on my right side with my nose to the ground for fourteen days.  I was allowed up only five minutes per hour at which time my chin was on my chest and my nose to the ground.  After that it was several weeks before I could read or watch TV.

Sometime during my recovery I realized I was acting like a blind person.
I wrote these words to a friend.

I have dealt with an inner emotional roller coaster and mind chatter that could kill anyone.  The battle that has been most difficult has not been the physical one, but the mental one.  The one no one really knows about; the secret part of you that slowly milks all the life and energy out of you and convinces you that you are blind when you are not; that things are impossible when they are not;  that life is hopeless when it is not. Until one day you realize that you are dead but your body is still alive.  What died is your spirit all because it believed all the negative mind chatter you never learned to change.

I began a major campaign to wipe fear and all negative thoughts from my mind and life.  I spent hours, days, weeks and months repeating affirmations and training myself to look for the good in life and live in the present moment.  I forced myself to face every fear as it showed itself and prove it wrong.

I am not sure when I noticed I was spending more energy thinking about good things.  But, somewhere along the journey fear gave way to faith, self hate gave way to self-love, and I am spending most of my time with joy and peace.

The loss of my sight restored my vision and I experienced the true healing of my spirit.

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Take The First Step

Why is it when we have a great idea we either take forever to get started or we never even take the first step?

I had the idea for these lessons, teleclasses and mentoring a couple of years ago.  I thought I was ready to make the big plunge and get started.  So last month I signed up with WordPress and began to put the framework together.

When it came to writing my first post I was paralyzed.

I got in touch with an old belief I was still clinging to and began working on letting it go.  That process is a huge part of my daily spiritual practice and helps me move forward.

Then I began telling myself I would wait until I was ready, had all the answers, knew what I was talking about, etc.  Sound familiar?

Fear wanted to stop me.  Now I know I have a choice, so I decided to step past my old fears and beliefs and just start today.

I am not entirely sure where this is going.

I know it will offer me a place to write down what I am learning on my inner spiritual journey.  That process will help me clarify the things I am learning.

Perhaps you will be encouraged by what you read.  I would like to think you would be inspired to deepen your own spiritual experience.

Above all I want you to know and feel the power of true unconditional love that is God in us.

I look forward to getting to know you better as we share the truth, as we know it.

Thanks for stopping by.  Do come again.


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